Our Fight Against Infertility

We have been married for 10 yrs. We have a beautiful 9yr old daughter, who is just amazing. We are ready for another addition to our family. We are ready to go, we just need a little help. With two failed IVF cycles and an IUI, we arent sure whats next!

Friday, February 27, 2009

Beta Results

So I had a beta on 17dpo. I had to wait until yesterday for the results, and they are ....... 874! WooHooo!I cant believe it, I am so excited. I went again this morning for another beta, but I wont have those results until Monday. I wish they could just tell you right away. The doctor wants to make sure my numbers our doubling, so lets all cross our fingers!

We had our Girl scout " Father Daughter Dance" last night. It was so fun. The girls all felt so special. It was really neat to see all the Dads dancing with their daughters. Our daughter had a wonderful time. When we got home we told K that we had something for her. She was very curious. We handed her a little package. Inside of it was a book, with the title "Im a Big Sister". As she opened it Z asked her "Have you read that one already?". She screamed when it set in. She is one happy camper, just like the rest of us. I know it is early to start telling people, but I figure I will want all the support I can get if something bad were to happen, so why not tell people. Im not superstitious, and it makes me happy to tell people, and I think I deserve to be happy. So world...Im Pregnant!

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

4 weeks 2day preggers!

I still really dont believe it. I keep testing, just to make sure that it is still positive, and it is! I am just in shock. I am going to my new OB tomorrow. She wanted to see me early because of our past history and losses. I am glad I get to go so early, I need some peace of mind. I need a doctor to tell me that there is really a baby in there. I will be glad to meet my new doctor as well. My last Ob, the one that delivered my daughter, has since retired from delivering babies. So it will be good to meet the new one. I dont think very much will happen tomorrow, but I am still very excited! I of course will update as soon as I can.

We havent told many people yet, just our parents and sibling, and a coupe friend of ours that know what we have been through. I am still nervous that something might happen, I think I will be nervous throughout my pregnancy.

Thank you for sweet comments. I love knowing that there are some out there reading this. It always made me feel better reading about others struggles with infertility, it made me feel less alone. I hope I can help just one person get through a tough time, and give someone hope.

Friday, February 20, 2009

Im sorry, but I dont recognise this. Do you?

Ok, so I have only seen these with one pink line, this one has two????

Holy Crap people! Im pregnant. I got a BFP at 11 dpo, I had already given up hope, but I had some extra pregnancy tests, so I peed. Then there it was, a light, but pink line! I thought I was losing my mind. I wasnt. I have since taken 4 more and they are all positive. I cannot believe this day has come. I will update more when I have some time, and my brain is functioning again!

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

9 dpo

I tested again this morning, I did yesterday as well. It was another BFN. I know it is still early, but seeing only 1 line is just devastating. I know there is still hope, but I dont have much left. Im getting tired of all of this. I thought by taking a "break" off IVF, that it would give me a second win. But all these months of naturally trying, just reminds me, that I am broken. I know I shouldn't say that, especially if you all have infertility, but I feel broken. I am young, healthy and happy...and broken. I cant help but become upset almost on daily bases about Octuplet mom. I know I dont get to decide who gets to have kids and who doesnt. But this woman makes me crazy! Why does she need 14 children. She doesnt even have a job! I feel like she single handily "used up" all my chances of having my own baby. I know I probably sound like a nut job, I quite possibly could be, but come on. Are you kidding me??

I will test again tomorrow and will log in to let you all know. Sighh

Thursday, February 12, 2009

4 DPO and Obsessing!

Ok so today I am obsessing. I am only 4 days past ovulation and thrilled everyime I feel any little twinge! Even if I am pregnant, I couldnt possibly even be "actually" pregnant. The embryo would have even implanted yet. But still I sit hoping for cramps or anything! I felt very sick last night and was very excited, then realized I probably just ate too many meatballs:(

So here I sit and wait and pray of course. I hope the time flies by so I can test!

On a happier note, Valentines Day is Saturday and I am very excited! We never go out to eat because its just too crazy, but we always have a nice dinner together a home, including our daughter. She loves Valentines Day.

Happy Love day to you all!

Monday, February 9, 2009

Back in the waiting game. 1 Dpo

Well, we are back from Grandma Junes funeral. It was a very emotional trip. The service was beautiful though. We were able to see alot of family that we hadn't seen in a long time. I'm very glad we were able to go. While we were there, some of us girls had to go through her jewelry, to see what we would like to have of hers. This was very difficult. When we were looking through, I found a necklace with a picture of my husband as a baby on it. It is precious, so special that she had kept it all these years. I now wear it around my neck. What a wonderful gift from Grandma June.

As for us. I am officially 1 dpo. The injections went well, and so did the trigger shot. I have a good feeling about this cycle! I haven't felt good about a cycle in awhile, so maybe this is a good sign. I will keep you all updated. I will be POAS(peeing on a stick) as soon as I can. That will be whenever the trigger shot will be out of my system. They will give you a false positive on a pregnancy test.

So probably in about 9 days, I will be posting about that. I'm sure I'll be back with a list of imaginary 2WW symptoms!