Up Next...Injectable Cycle

Well, we are not ready for another IVF. Not financially or emotionally. So we are going to try an injectable cycle. I will be on Gonal F for 7 days, then a trigger shot. This should hopefully produce more and better quality eggs. More targets, better chance of pregnancy. So I hope this will go well. I am slowly but surely losing hope. I keep trying to picture my life with only 1 child, and its hard. I know I am SO lucky to have her, but it still hurts.

Z and I leave tomorrow for Missouri. Z's grandmother passed away. We are very sad, but at peace with the fact that she is no longer suffering. What a wonderful woman she was. She was quite possible the strongest woman I have ever met. We will miss her very much.

I will be away from the computer for a few days, but will update on my injections when I return.

Happy New Year

I hope everyone had a wonderful New years! We had a great one. We spent it with some friends at our house. It was a lot of fun.

As for me, Im still not pregnant. I am hoping 2009 will bring us our baby. We have quite a few friends who are expecting. I am truly happy for them, but I wont lie, it makes me sad as well. It makes me sad for me. I feel like I have been through enough, I deserve the right to be selfish sometimes. It is the hardest when shopping for a baby gift. I see all the things that I long to buy, and wonder why I dont get to. I go through ups and downs. I know there are so many others going through the same thing as us, but I still feel so alone.

Here to starting fresh! I hope the new year brings you all you hope for.