Beta Results

Well, it was negative. I am still in shock. Even with the negative home pregnancy test, I still had hope. I really felt pregnant, I still cant believe Im not. My husband and I both were SO excited for the phone call from our RE office. We were both giggling when the phone rang....we knew it was going to be good news! I saw his face change while he was on the phone, and I knew what that meant. NEGATIVE.

I cried non stop for a few days. I am just now able to talk about it. I am devastated. I have emailed back and forth with our RE and have a phone review set up for later today. So far, he has said that my egg quality is just too poor for the embryos to keep dividing. He has mentioned trying medicated iui's for awhile, since they are less invasive and less expensive, and we still have a chance with that.

So for now, we are back in the same place I feel we have been stuck in for a long time now. I am still hopeful though. I will not be giving up anytime soon. I dont think we will be doing IVF for awhile though. I need a brake from that.

I will be back, I wont be leaving this blog untill I have a baby in my arms!

9dp4dt

Well, we are back from out trip. It was really nice to see all of our extended family. My hope of the trip distracting us from being pregnant or not, did not happen. We thought about it the entire trip! I POAS(pee'd on sticks) everyday. They were all negative. They were the dollar test though. So today I am 9days past a 4day transfer and I tested with a First Response. It was negative. I have beta in 2 days. I will be 11dp4dt on beta day. I have little hope though, except that I feel pregnant. My back is killing me and I am still having cramping. I feel so different from our last negative cycle, I just cant see how I couldn't be pregnant! I will update as oon as I get our results. No more POAS for me though...way to depressing!

4dp4dt

Ok, so I have been absent for a bit, I have been on bedrest! We had our transfer on Sunday, the 7th. We were so nervous. We got there and met with the RE to talk about what we had to transfer. I had had nightmares that there would be nothing to transfer.......but there was! There was 3 great looking embies. they were all 9 cells and 1 was compacting. There was also 2 more that were slower growing, but lookied ok. We decided on transferring the 3 really good ones. So I am currently pregnant with triplets untill proven otherwise, in m mind! We were hoping the other 2 would keep growing and they could be frozen for future attempts, but they didnt make it.
I went home and did 36 hours of bedrest and am now just taking it really easy. I have had slight cramping, which I consider a good thin. I want to feel something going on down there, ya know? The cramps come and go though. I am officially obsessing over everything! My RE also put me on heparin yesterday to thin my blood. He was concerned about some antibodies I might have, that can cause early miscarriage. SO I am still having to get 4 shots a day! My butt is soooo sore. My husband is right though, if this works this time, I wont think twice about the golf ball size lumps and bruises on my butt!
We are travelling to Missouri today to see my husbands sick grandma. She unfortunately is not doing well. She needs lot of prayers. So, I have packed up all my meds and am stopping to load up on home pregnancy tests too! I plan on POAS(peeing on a stick) tomorrow. I going to pee and pray! All I want is to see 2 lines. Please oh please let there be 2 lines!
I will post as soon as I get back! My beta is next Thursday! Keep your fingers crossed!

We had ER

We went in on Wed. morning for our egg retrieval. I was of course very nervous, I hate being put under! Everything went really well. They ended up getting 20 eggs. There was 2 more that they werent able to get. But boy did they try, I am sore to prove it! I am alot more sore than last time! I also have to have the progesterone injection morning and evening! So my butt cheeks are also in pain!
I spoke with the RE yesterday and out of the 20 eggs retrieved, 18 were mature and they all fertilized! Yaaayyyyy! SO I think we will have a transfer on Sunday. I will let you know as soon as I find out!
So as of now, we have 20 little babies growing away!